Running Out of Time

This is not blog about the book running out of time which is mysteriously similar to the movie the village, so don't worry. In all seriousness though, I feel like I'm running out of time. It's not that I'm going to die soon, but I feel I don't have much time left for some things that i love.

I had a conversation with my dad yesterday about college and options for sports to play and stuff like that. It made me realize that in two years I will graduate high school and lose so many of the things and opportunities that I have come to love. There will be no more coaches telling me I could return kicks for them and there will be no more thoughts of, hey I could play football. There won't be thoughts about what it would be like to run track instead of baseball. In two years I will have made decisions, that will have all happened, and for the rest of my life all I will have is memories.

This also adds pressure in my mind. I can't change what I do in the next two years once it's done. I won't have the chances I have now ever again, and I absolutely don't want to fuck something up by making a decision that takes away from me getting everything out of these chances that I can. when all I have left is memories, I want those memories to be great, to make me smile whenever I reminisce.

After two years are up there won't be chances to go to states with my best friends at Chester Valley. When the tournament comes, two little mistakes and you may never get another chance to fulfill a dream. For some reason this isn't enough to motivate some people, to make some people try their best and do everything they can to have success. I don't understand that at all. Not giving a shit about a game is a disappointment to myself. There isn't that much time left to have fun doing some of these things we love to do so give it your all. Make the most of every moment because soon enough all you will have is a memory.