There's no way anyone could disagree that I miss her. The one who I'd love to go out with, but yet I know I have to be friends with her just from this morning. The way I know it's just about being friends is the fact that I'm being ripped to shreds just knowing I can't talk to her for one more day.
I have so much work that I need to get done. Yet the first thing that happens when I wake up is I feel like absolute shit as her name pops into my head and I see my phone that usually goes off 200 times a day thanks to her alone, knowing that her name won't light up there once today. Yesterday was the only time I thought I would cry about this, especially after I made the plans to talk to her at school. But know as I realize, shit I still can't focus on my god damn math project (yea math project, I agree wtf), I also realize she's why and who knows how upset I'm going to be today.
The only reason I got out of bed today is because I have to work on my project otherwise I won't sleep for a second tomorrow. I didn't want to get up, I just wanted to sleep until I could have a chance to further impress dimples on my best friend's face.
Another way you can start to understand how much this is bothering me: I wrote about it. Most of my blogs are about more universal feelings. I write about my current feeling less specifically so people can understand it happens a lot. This feeling may happen again, but this is the first time I have felt this. I can't help but make this one specific and that's why tomorrow morning I'm going to get my best friends back and tell her again we will be best friends forever and know in my mind that's also the only way we could ever be more. Plus I can't live without her in my life, and best friend is a pretty damn good place for her.
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